Ever feel like there are different parts of you at war, each trying to steer your life in different directions? That’s not dysfunction, it’s wisdom. And understanding how to work with these parts might just be the key to profound healing and wholeness.
Meet Tamala Floyd, a renowned psychotherapist and Internal Family Systems (IFS) lead trainer with over 25 years of experience helping people understand and heal through parts work. In this illuminating conversation, she reveals how our different inner parts aren’t enemies to be conquered, but allies waiting to be understood.
You’ll discover:
β’ Why trying to silence or eliminate parts of yourself never works (and what to do instead)
β’ How childhood experiences shape our protective parts, and why they get exhausted
β’ The fascinating connection between where trauma lives in your body and how to release it
β’ A revolutionary approach to healing that honors all parts of who you are
β’ Why building relationships with your parts leads to lasting transformation
Tamala shares insights from her new book Listening When Parts Speak: A Practical Guide to Healing with Internal Family Systems Therapy and Ancestor Wisdom, offering a pathway to understanding yourself with greater compassion and clarity. Whether you’re dealing with anxiety, people-pleasing, perfectionism, or simply wanting to feel more whole, this conversation provides a profound framework for healing and growth.
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Episode Transcript:
Jonathan Fields: [00:00:00] So what if those voices in your head. The ones that sometimes feel like they’re battling with each other weren’t actually a problem to be fixed, but were rather a profound source of wisdom and healing. And what if the path to feeling whole didn’t require silencing or killing them off, but rather learning to listen to them in a very particular way? These questions kind of stopped me in my tracks during a fascinating conversation that really transformed how I think about the relationship between our different inner parts and things like trauma, healing, and wholeness. My guest today is Tamala Floyd, a psychotherapist and internal family systems lead trainer with over 25 years of experience helping people understand and heal through parts work. She received her master’s degree in social Work from the University of Southern California, and has taught at both the University of Phoenix and USC. Her latest book, Listening When Parts Speak, offers a revolutionary framework for healing personal and generational trauma. One of the things that fascinated me most was discovering how these different parts of ourselves actually show up in specific places in our bodies, and how understanding this connection can lead to a profound healing. Tamala shared her own powerful story of how her people pleasing part was actually protecting a younger version of herself who felt deeply rejected, and how learning to build a relationship with this part.
Jonathan Fields: [00:01:18] It just changed everything. The insight she shares about how our protective parts get exhausted from years of trying to keep us safe, and what happens when we finally learn to unburden them, are really powerful ideas. So excited to share this conversation with you! I’m Jonathan Fields and this is Good Life Project.. You know, really excited to dive in. I feel like we’re having this conversation at a moment where heads are spinning, hearts are breaking, hearts are breaking open. There’s just profound uncertainty in so many different ways, in so many places. And at the same time, I’ve been really increasingly fascinated with this whole world of parts or IFS, internal family systems, and I feel like it’s kind of part of the zeitgeist these days in coaching, in psychotherapy, it’s like this emerging thing and this is something where, you know, you’re in practice over 25 years at this point. You’ve taught, you’ve had clinical practice. You have just deep, deep wisdom about not just IFS, but also a specialty in healing and women’s trauma, in ancestral trauma and bringing these worlds together, which is so interesting, especially at this moment in time. Right. For you, though, this isn’t just a professional practice. This is personal.
Tamala Floyd: [00:02:37] It is personal. Most definitely. I see IFS as a way of organizing my life, how I show up in the world, how I interact with other people. Always aware, maybe not always, but working towards being aware of how my parts get activated, and also learning not to take how other people behave personally, because I also have an understanding that sometimes they’re operating from their parts too.
Jonathan Fields: [00:03:07] So let’s dive in. Let’s do a little bit of defining here. I think it would be helpful because a lot of people probably heard these phrase parts or, you know, like internal family systems, IFS were tossed around. Take me into what this actually is.
Tamala Floyd: [00:03:20] So yeah. So when we’re talking about parts, it’s a way of conceptualizing the mind. So instead of the psyche being one whole, we know that the psyche is comprised of sub personalities. And in IFS we call these sub personalities parts. So when you think about you are excited about something or you’re feeling anxious or you’re angry, what we would say is there’s a part of you that’s experiencing anger or anxiety. And the reason that we say a part is because one it’s not that way all the time, and you can be feeling angry and some excitement at the same time. So who who’s holding the anger? Who’s holding the excitement? You also might also be experiencing someone inside criticizing you for getting angry. So those are our part. So one can be angry, another can be criticizing you for being angry, and another can be excited about something that’s coming up in your life, all being experienced simultaneously.
Jonathan Fields: [00:04:24] So it’s kind of like the real world version of that, that animated movie Inside Out, where where, you know, you’ve got all the different people inside your head and they’re all they’re all trying to sort of like, reach for the levers to pull to when we talk about parts. One of my curiosities around this, it has also always been, okay, so I get the idea. Like, there’s a part of me that gets anxious, so there’s a part of me that, and we’ll talk about some of the specific parts that that commonly show up. But more broadly, it’s like the question that’s always in my mind is, well, yes, but is there something bigger that’s steering the ship?
Tamala Floyd: [00:04:58] Yes, there really is. And that is who we are. And in IFS we call that the self. So when my parts. I love that you use the inside out in the pulling of the levers. Right. So when my parts are not in the seat of consciousness, pulling the levers, once they blend and separate from me, what’s there is my self, and the self is me who has never been harmed by the things that have happened to me. That’s the intuitive, the part of me that is healed and whole. So if all of our parts un blend, what’s left is our self.
Jonathan Fields: [00:05:38] Okay, so here’s I’m going to get a little meta early in the conversation. If we existed in a space where the parts weren’t there, then what you’re suggesting is there is still this other self which exists independent of them.
Tamala Floyd: [00:05:54] Completely. Absolutely, yes. And often our parts, the reason that our parts are often coming into the seat of consciousness is because they either don’t have awareness that self is available, or they don’t trust self, or they have never been in relationship like they know it’s there, but they don’t have a relationship with self.
Jonathan Fields: [00:06:17] Got it. Let’s dive into some of the parts here. So and maybe more broadly Allison, this is something that you post fairly early in your new book. Is this this notion of how do we actually meet our parts? Because I think we’re all walking around and it feels like there’s just a soup sometimes of warring voices in our head, sometimes of collaborating voices in our head. But I feel like a lot of us really don’t understand how to connect with any of those, how to identify them, how to see them, how to meet them? Yeah. I remember years ago, interviewing, uh, Jeanine Roth. She created her persona with what she called. I think it was like the mean aunt in the attic or something like that. And she literally, like, had completely anthropomorphized this voice into a being, you know, like what they looked like, what they dressed like, what they sounded like. And anytime there was a voice that came into her head that had this sort of like, mean thing going on, um, attacking her, chastising her, it was this person inside of her that she had anthropomorphized inside of her that was doing the speaking. Is that the functional equivalent of identifying apart?
Tamala Floyd: [00:07:27] It is. What that reminds me of is what we do. Often I’ll have clients do what we call mapping. So there’s this awareness of and sometimes it’s a voice, sometimes it’s a feeling or a sensation or an emotion. However the part is expressing itself. I’ll ask my client to draw that on the page, some representation of that part. So we’ll have them. I’ll have them connect with it. So if you’re doing this by yourself, like you know that there’s a part that criticizes you, say, or another part that’s a people pleaser. Connect with that part. Bring that part into existence in your body. However, it shows up welcoming it there, right? So if it shows up as tightness in your stomach, how will we represent that tightness in my stomach on a sheet of paper. And it might just be a scribbly, you know, you know, whatever the knots of the stomach. Right. And then that critical part, how might we represent that one on the page. So just being able to see what those parts look like outside of you, because the key to IFS and working with our parts is coming into relationship. So I love the example that you just gave and how she would represent and see what they look like, right? This allows the separation between the part and self, because now I have a a representation of this part, a drawing of this part. Now self can come into relationship with it because in a sense it’s now outside of me. We’ve created that separation.
Jonathan Fields: [00:09:01] So somebody listening to this right now or maybe watching it and and they’re kind of feeling like, okay, so I get it. There’s this mean part of me and there’s this really happy go lucky part of me, and there’s this anxious part of me, but I’m having trouble wrapping my head around the notion that these are like separate beings within me, rather than just these are my own voices speaking to myself. Mhm. How do we make the argument that these really exist as separate parts within us? And why why is that actually important.
Tamala Floyd: [00:09:33] Yeah. So how we make the argument is through relationship. Once you get to know your parts like there is clearly a distinction and a personality and a way of seeing the world that is different between my critical part and my people pleasing part. So really, how we learn that Jonathan is incoming into relationship with them, like these parts will let you know when they took on the role of becoming the people pleaser. Like, I know exactly when in time and space. That part became the people pleaser because of what was happening in my childhood. I also know when the critical voice came, but only because I’ve developed a relationship with them. And they’ve told me.
Jonathan Fields: [00:10:18] When we look at the sweep of psychotherapy and even spiritual guidance, you know, like whether you’re going to a pastor or a rabbi or whoever it may be, like so often every tradition has its modalities, right? They had their models of like, this is the way we process this thing that we’re going through. And often the rules like, I’m curious, like, how does IFS start to take a seat at the table of healing. Where does this come from? Because the way you’re talking about it, parts have been with us time immortal. You know, it’s not like 30 years ago. All of a sudden we had parts, right? No, but this wasn’t a part of the the psychotherapeutic model at all. How does this even become part of the conversation?
Tamala Floyd: [00:11:04] Right? I love how this actually became part of the conversation. It became part of the conversation because the founder of IFS, doctor Dick Schwartz, started noticing that this is the way his clients were speaking, which was very different than the one mind model. Right? So instead of just saying, okay, well, this can’t be right, we really have a one mind model. He got curious about, well, what is this? And he just started you know, he’s he’s a PhD. So really started asking questions not trying to make his client fit what we already knew. But getting curious about, well, this isn’t like what we already know. And so the more he engaged these parts, these sub personalities, the more he learned. And then it’s like, okay, I see this with one client. He’s noticing it with another, and he’s just asking the questions. And this is truly how the model develop. Being curious about something that was different from what we already knew and do. Let’s be honest, that’s the way. New development, new new ways of thinking are developed anyway, he said, oh, this is different from what we know. Let’s get curious about it instead of trying to make it like what we already know.
Jonathan Fields: [00:12:20] I mean, it’s so interesting, right, too, because so Dick Schwartz comes onto the scene, says he’s I’m seeing this in my clients, my patients, and in a repeated basis. Maybe there’s something to this. Let’s expand and deepen into it. You know, so in this world approaches models. They roll out very slowly and they develop over time and it takes a long time, often for the therapeutic community, the social work community, the supporting community to embrace them. And they have to be proven. And oftentimes when they come out, the people who bring them forward are viewed as mavericks, sometimes even heretics, in this space. I’m curious to your knowledge of the early days of IPS of parts work. Was this also seen as a bit of of heresy in this space, or was this just embraced as like, oh, this is new and awesome and it solves so many problems?
Tamala Floyd: [00:13:09] Unfortunately, it was not embraced. It actually was seen as what we’ve called now. Woo woo. Or, you know, it was New Age. It was too far outside of science is the way that it was saying that we’re talking to ourselves. There’s people inside of us, you know. What are we talking about? And let’s even think back, you know, 40, 50, 60 years ago, the way that we’re looking at multiples was that that was dysfunctional, abnormal and that we needed to bring these different multiples personalities that a person might have into one. It was about integration. So now what we’re saying is kind of the opposite of what we understood the mind to be. So no, it was not at all.
Jonathan Fields: [00:13:54] Accept it and we’ll be right back after a word from our sponsors. Okay. So I, I’m old enough where I came of age at a time where there was a movie called Sybil.
Tamala Floyd: [00:14:06] I knew you were going. Yeah, right.
Jonathan Fields: [00:14:08] Okay, so, so, like, we get that reference for people who don’t get the reference. This was it must have been the 70s, maybe, or 80s, right? Where this was the hot movie and it showed this woman who had back then what was called, quote, split personality. Right. You know, and and then we’ve had all sorts of crime dramas and stuff like this. Well, it was the other person who was in me who did the thing that was terrible. Tease out the distinction here about what we’re talking about, then, between what, you know, a DSM might call something like multiple personality disorder.
Tamala Floyd: [00:14:37] Yeah.
Jonathan Fields: [00:14:38] And and parts that exists within us.
Tamala Floyd: [00:14:41] And now just for folks listening that multiple personality disorder, we now consider it dissociative identity disorder. So we did change the name. Great. And really the way that we see parts is that the behaviors of parts are on a continuum. And at the far reaches of that continuum is dissociative identity disorder. So it’s still about parts. It’s just this is parts in their most extreme behavior where parts don’t have understanding, connection or even knowledge about other parts and what those parts are doing when they’re in the seat of consciousness. Many of the parts have no connection whatsoever to self, or they don’t trust self, because whenever maybe as a child this person showed any of the qualities of self, like their playfulness and interest in life and curiosity. Perhaps they got punished, beat harmed. So being that way was not okay. It was not even safe. So this is why these parts take may have taken on these extreme roles. I mean, we we talk about parts being in extreme roles, but extreme roles are still on a continuum, with the dissociative identity personality being at the far end. So still parts just extremely, uh, just, you know, uh, separate from the whole.
Jonathan Fields: [00:16:10] It’s lingering in my mind now, then, is are we born with parts or do the parts emerge through some sort of happening?
Tamala Floyd: [00:16:19] I love this question. Thank you so much for this question. We are born with our parts, and our parts have distinct roles within our system at birth that you know are going to develop even more. Over the course of our life. From their experiences, however, the parts take on extreme roles in order to protect us. So they change their roles. So that one that became people pleaser within my system. This part was born as one who really connected with people. She was very playful. She was light. She loved being around others, and she found that people liked her when she was this way. She found that when she behaved in other ways, that was not acceptable. So this part that was kind of connecting with people eventually went to the extreme of being a people pleaser, because she noticed that she was more acceptable as a people pleaser than when she did something else. So the parts have their natural roles at birth, but because of how they interact with the family, the community. What happens to them in school or with friends that causes parts to feel like, oh, that wasn’t good. I need to now protect this person from having that negative experience again. If I people, please, unlikable people are happy with me and Tamala because the part is sin. Tamala doesn’t have to experience the pain that she experienced in the past.
Jonathan Fields: [00:17:57] Let’s stay with the people pleaser part. Yeah, and dive into this a little bit. Right? Because this is also personal for you. So you can share from lived experience right?
Tamala Floyd: [00:18:04] Yeah.
Jonathan Fields: [00:18:05] In your mind in the work that you’ve done before, the people pleaser part in, you picked up the mantle of saying, oh, if I do this more, then I’m more welcomed by more people. And that’s like something that I want before I picked up the mantle of having that job. What was the people pleaser part and what was its job?
Tamala Floyd: [00:18:26] Yeah. So all she was was someone that was happy, connecting, lovable, playful, interested in life. These were the qualities that I would ascribe to her before she was burdened. So she. So. So even though it was a way in which she connected with people, it wasn’t about pleasing them. It was just her being carefree and lovely and playful and connecting with folks. But it wasn’t about some type of approval from others at that point.
Tamala Floyd: [00:19:02] Yeah.
Jonathan Fields: [00:19:03] So at some point then it sounds like we all have these different parts in us. Yeah. They all play positive roles and they’re all fairly organic to us. But often there’s the part has a realization or maybe something happens externally. Maybe there’s a circumstance. So the part sees, okay, if I kind of amplify the way I’m doing it, or I add an intention or a goal or an outcome to it, It’s going to serve this person, like the bigger person, in a way that maybe keeps them safe or whatever the outcome may be. And it kind of takes on this almost extreme version of the original pure intention. Does that land?
Tamala Floyd: [00:19:44] That definitely lands. Absolutely. I love the way that you said that. Yeah, that it becomes more extreme. It’s not as pure as it was. There is a job now. Like that’s the other distinction. When I had this kind of carefree connecting with folks, there was no job in that. That was just me being me. But when I became a people pleaser, this part took on that people pleasing role. That was a job like I have the people pleaser in order to be accepted. This is how I get love. This is how I’m accepted. This is how I’m okay. And most important to the parts in the system. This is how we keep Tamla from feeling hurt. Unlovable. Unworthy. You know, whatever that sensitivity, that vulnerability under that is.
Jonathan Fields: [00:20:35] So this is kind of the moment when a part tips from and again, correct me if this isn’t isn’t the right language, but what in my mind it sounds like this is when part tips from healthy and functional to unhealthy and dysfunctional.
Tamala Floyd: [00:20:49] Yeah, So what i would.
Jonathan Fields: [00:20:51] You’re kind of like ish. Not quite right.
Tamala Floyd: [00:20:53] We’re close.
Jonathan Fields: [00:20:54] Yeah like so. So tell me, tell me what’s more right.
Tamala Floyd: [00:20:56] And I think that that’s the way most people would understand that. So I do want to say that first. And so one of the things that I love about IFS is that it’s non pathology. So we wouldn’t say dysfunctional. What we would say is that this is what the part needed to do to keep us safe. Like it’s all of the parts roles, no matter how extreme, no matter how we would call it dysfunctional when we understand how and why they took on the roles that they did. It makes perfect sense. It makes perfect sense why they’re doing what they’re doing. You know, my people pleaser want it to feel love. And one of the messages she received as a child is that you are valuable. As long as you’re making good grades in school, and when you make a grade that isn’t a good grade, you are not lovable. No one said that to me. No one said that to me. The behaviors is how this part interpreted the behavior. And the behavior was my father saying to me after bringing home a sea, no child of mine is average. My part translated that to then I’m not a child of his. I mean, I’m a kid, right? So I’m, you know, I’m not a child of his or he doesn’t love me unless I do that. So that’s what became the people pleaser. Oh, if I do what people want expect of me, then I’m lovable. I’m worthy. I’m valuable. I’m connected to them. So it’s these things that as a child, we interpret. And that clearly was not his meaning. But that’s how the part interpreted it.
Jonathan Fields: [00:22:38] Yeah. I mean it’s so interesting. Right? So it’s like oftentimes then maybe these shifts in roles, it sounds like I would imagine for a lot of people, the switch gets flipped early in childhood. If there’s a moment or an unfolding that happens and it’s like, oh, and then what you’re saying, if I understand it right, is that this is not viewed as dysfunction. This is viewed as there’s this part of you says, oh, okay. So love is important to me, right? I just heard this thing from my dad. And for me to be his child to, to keep in like under the umbrella of his love, I need to make good grades on a consistent basis. I need to please him. He didn’t mean that. That wasn’t. But that’s what your part thought and said. So at that point, it’s actually it’s acting on what it believes is good intention.
Tamala Floyd: [00:23:26] Yeah.
Jonathan Fields: [00:23:26] So I see why it’s like we don’t label that as dysfunction because.
Tamala Floyd: [00:23:30] It’s adapting.
Jonathan Fields: [00:23:31] Right. In its eyes. It’s like, oh, this is this is the thing that I want. This is the thing that’s good. Like, um, and here’s the way that I would behave in order to keep it as part of my experience of life.
Tamala Floyd: [00:23:43] I’m Loving the way that you’re phrasing this. That’s perfect.
Jonathan Fields: [00:23:47] Let’s zoom the lens out a little bit. So you have had within you this this part, this people pleaser part, right? In the canon of IFS, from what I understand. And you write about a number of different parts. So let’s talk about some of them. There’s right. I guess there are parts that are commonly occurring across large numbers of people.
Tamala Floyd: [00:24:05] Mhm.
Jonathan Fields: [00:24:06] You reference the people pleaser part as having a job, in part as protection. But I’ve also heard the phrase protector parts.
Tamala Floyd: [00:24:13] Yes.
Jonathan Fields: [00:24:14] What are we talking about when we’re talking about protector parts?
Tamala Floyd: [00:24:17] Right. So our protector Parts are protecting what we call an IFS or our exiles, and those are our vulnerable parts. And the reason they want to protect the exile is they’re protecting them from experiencing whatever harm they experience earlier. So in the case of my people pleaser, a part of me got exiled. And what got exiled was this carefree, light connecting, loving part of me that got exiled because that got in the way of me being perfect. You know, the way in which I thought this part thought my parent, my dad particularly wanted me to show up. So parts of us get exiled, pushed away. What the protector is doing is saying, okay, I don’t want that one. That was really hurt when she heard no child of mine gets a C or is it its average? I don’t want her to experience that pain again. So we’re going to tuck her away, and instead I will show up as the people pleaser to make sure this one doesn’t get hurt again. So that’s so art. So and we have two types of protectors. We have managers. And that’s what the the people pleaser is doing. Managers are preemptive. They are doing all they can. I think about them as like the hamster on the wheel. They’re doing all they can to make sure.
Tamala Floyd: [00:25:44] That one doesn’t get hurt again. The exile doesn’t get hurt again. So if like people please, she won’t get hurt. The other type of protectors we term firefighters. So they’re the ones that are reacted. So if that unworthiness because that’s really what my my little one felt, she felt unworthy and maybe even unlovable. If something in my life triggers or activates that feeling of rejection unlovable, unworthy. And I start to feel that in my body. The firefighters come in and they do what firefighters do. They douse whatever’s happening. Right. So I’m feeling unworthy. Something’s happened in my life. The firefighter comes in. One of my firefighters is eating sugar. She comes in and I’ve got to go for the sugar. Right. So that I don’t have to feel the unlovable or the unworthy that got activated. So managers act preemptively, keep us from filling it in the first place.
Jonathan Fields: [00:26:45] Hmm.
Tamala Floyd: [00:26:46] Firefighters act reactively. Once we start to feel some of that pain.
Jonathan Fields: [00:26:51] Got it. And then the exile is the part of you that the protector is basically protecting from being hurt. But it’s doing it by effectively vanishing it.
Tamala Floyd: [00:27:05] Absolutely.
Jonathan Fields: [00:27:06] From how you show up. So there’s a part of you that that exile part. Well, the word exile, right. It’s basically it’s been exiled. So it’s no longer going to be in your everyday experience. And you know, as you describe it, in your case, if this is the joyful, the playful, the carefree.
Tamala Floyd: [00:27:23] The curious,
Jonathan Fields: [00:27:23] Right. I mean, how tragic.
Tamala Floyd: [00:27:27] Yeah. Right. Right. So I became very serious. I was a, you know, you become very like, this is the way in which, you know, or if it wasn’t serious, it’s. What are the adults looking for, you know, what do they whether, you know, teachers might want different things from me than my Girl Scout leader, then my mom versus my dad. You know, what are the adults looking for?
Jonathan Fields: [00:27:52] Mhm.
Tamala Floyd: [00:27:53] Yeah.
Jonathan Fields: [00:27:53] So the exile also the way you describe it is would be a part that has significant vulnerability. Tell me more about that.
Tamala Floyd: [00:28:03] What makes the exiles vulnerable is that they have learned that their natural way of being in the world is unacceptable.
Jonathan Fields: [00:28:14] Mhm.
Tamala Floyd: [00:28:14] That’s the message that the exiles get. That’s the vulnerability. Like I can’t be me. That’s why that ends up getting pushed away. And I do want to share that. Exiles are not only exiled by the protector parts who want to push them away and keep them safe. They too may decide to shrink. Like, oh, this isn’t okay. So they may, in and of themselves choose to hide. So they are hidden and may choose to hide.
Jonathan Fields: [00:28:42] Right. So it’s like the protector takes on this role of protecting that part. And the exile itself says, okay. So part of the role then I’m going to take on now is to back away, to shrink using your words.
Tamala Floyd: [00:28:55] Absolutely.
Jonathan Fields: [00:28:56] It’s so interesting. Right. Because the way that you’re describing this to and I wonder if this comes up in conversation or in practice, it feels like I would imagine people listening to this and saying, oh, like, I can immediately tell you the part of me that’s exile, like, now that I sort of, like, have a sense of this. I can tell you exactly. Like who? Like, if I think back to when I was a kid, like, there was a moment where I was happy, I was carefree, I was goofy, I was dorky.
Jonathan Fields: [00:29:21] I was like, nerdy, whatever it is. And something maybe it was social situation made me feel like, oh, it’s not okay to be this way. And like that part got tucked away. This is the part, though. Or maybe the parts where I’ll talk from my own experience. Like I think of that part as the quote, well, that’s the real me, rather than a part like that’s the essential me. Like the part that, you know, when sixth grade, like, I got a nickname that made me, like me for being a dork. I didn’t show that for decades. Right. So it’s interesting to me that you describe that as well. That’s not the whole you that was just a part of you where it’s like, I kind of look at it. I’m like, that’s the essence of me, though. Talk me through this a little bit.
Tamala Floyd: [00:30:03] Yeah. So what you’re describing to is now, now I’m going to talk about kind of the fractal experience of IFS. Okay. So you have a part that might be the dorky, goofy part of you. And it feels, you know, very much like you, you know, but parts also have self in them. So there’s the self of you as human, Jonathan’s self energy, the self. But we have all these parts that were made up of. But each part also can be self led. So it can also have qualities of self. Like I talked about that young part of me being curious, you know, about the world. And so curiosity is one of the qualities of our self. And our parts can have these qualities too.
Jonathan Fields: [00:30:59] I think I’m wrapping my head around that.
Tamala Floyd: [00:31:02] Yeah, I get it.
Jonathan Fields: [00:31:04] Right. I know we went to the deep end of the pool there.
Tamala Floyd: [00:31:06] We did go, to the deep end.
Jonathan Fields: [00:31:08] But even this basic idea, okay, so that we have we have these parts of ourselves that oftentimes early in life, something happens where we gain the feeling that it’s not acceptable to sort of like be that part in an observable in a public way. So that part becomes exiled and it sometimes intentionally shrinks itself. And then we have this other part which kind of takes on the role of the protector. Like, I’m going to make sure that you’re still okay. So I’m going to then and it kind of makes sense, because if one part is shrinking and another part doesn’t expand, there’s going to be a void, right?
Tamala Floyd: [00:31:43] Right, exactly. That makes sense. Yeah.
Jonathan Fields: [00:31:45] And I love the notion that we have like, especially in the protector part, if we’re talking about like there’s these two different types, the manager who’s sort of like their every day and then the firefighters like, oh, something bad’s happening. Let me like four alarms. Let’s go and let’s take care of this. I want to get back to the self a little bit more here also. So if I think about this from almost like an eastern philosophical lens, like a Buddhist lens. I think a lot of eastern philosophy is much more comfortable talking about this idea. And, you know, if we talk about in the context of meditation, you know, where if if you meditate, you know, and you’re you are not your thoughts. There is a self within you, a capitalist self that is observing all of these different things. I guess what I’d love your take on and we talked about this a little bit already. It’s like, who is that person really? So if it’s not actually just an amalgam of the parts.
Tamala Floyd: [00:32:38] Hmm.
Jonathan Fields: [00:32:39] Help me here.
Tamala Floyd: [00:32:40] Yeah, it is what you’re describing. It’s that essence. It’s our core, it’s our humanness and described in many different philosophies and traditions. And it is slightly indescribable. Right? It’s difficult to describe when you talk about the essence of someone or their core. One of the ways we can describe it is talk about its qualities. That’s what we do in IFS as we talk about the qualities of the self. And I think other traditions do the same because it really is something difficult to describe. So some of the qualities of self, there are eight of them, all starting with C, and I’m always going to forget one. But here we go. So there’s curiosity, clarity, calm, courage, creativity. And anyway, here we go. But there are eight of them. And they all when we think about accessing these qualities of self, these are the qualities that we come into relationship with our parts with, like many of my parts, did not experience kind of that connection about me being, you know, this carefree, you know, just really connecting with that’s who I am and allowing me to be that, being curious about why our parts are behaving the way that they do. You know, when we talk about earlier. Like the part that is super critical or angry. One of the ways we help that part is instead of judging it, because often raging, critical, angry parts get judged internally and in the world. So now they get to come into relationship with self, and self is just curious. I just want to know about the anchor. Tell me what that feels like. Tell me what’s happening instead of don’t be angry. That’s unacceptable. Well, that’s only going to cause that part to act out or be get bigger in that anger and rage.
Jonathan Fields: [00:34:36] Yeah. And we’ll be right back after a word from our sponsors. I would imagine a lot of times, even if we just start to recognize these parts within ourselves. Yeah, yeah. Like there are first responses. That’s not okay. You know, like, maybe it came to us in the beginning and it’s not okay to behave this way. It’s not okay to be this way. So I need to kill this part of myself, I need to extinguish it because it’s like I see that it’s causing me harm. I see that I go into a meeting and I start to behave this way, and I can actively see that it’s causing outcomes that I don’t want in my life. So I need to figure out how to extinguish this part. That doesn’t work, does it?
Tamala Floyd: [00:35:22] It doesn’t work. But our parts think it’s the only choice that they have in order to make sure that we don’t get into trouble when we’re in the, you know, the meeting at work, right? Is that if I just cut that part off, then I can be present, not the self. Another part I can be present to make sure that Jonathan doesn’t lose his job, that Jonathan doesn’t say the wrong thing in that meeting.
Jonathan Fields: [00:35:48] So why doesn’t this work? Why doesn’t trying to, like, extinguish that part work?
Tamala Floyd: [00:35:53] Because eventually the energy of that part that’s been exiled, exile. It’s to keep the ball under the water in the pool, you know. Eventually it’s going to pop up, right? So it’s just not foolproof. There are times when that energy is going to be present, and that’s why it’s more important. And it works better to come into relationship, to be with the part, to understand the part, to let the part know. Because another thing that these parts really believe is that they’re alone. They also believe they have no choice. So two things that self self helps the part appreciate is one, you’re not alone. You have Jonathan. And two, there are other ways you do have choice. And the key to IFS and parts work working is that those protectors are not going to give up their jobs, the managers and the firefighters until we heal the one they protect a lot of other therapies. We’re treating Reading the angry part. The critical part. The the the the overeating parts. You know, the parts that are affecting the client’s life. But we’re not getting to the one underneath that got exile, that called these parts to their jobs and to their duties to begin with. So that’s the goal is we need that part of me that got exile because she was, you know, so carefree. We have to heal her. And how she got healed is we came into relationship with the parts that were protecting her. In my case, the people pleaser realizes the one that got hurt, that felt rejected when dad said, don’t have children that are average. And so we dealt with and healed that rejection because that was the vulnerability. And that’s what we get triggered, you know, when a breakup would happen in my life, I felt rejected. I’d feel the deep pain of that one that had been put aside.
Jonathan Fields: [00:37:53] I want to make sure I’m understanding this too that oftentimes what we do instead of trying to heal the herd part, is we look at the parts that are that step forward, that often the protector part, or we try and elicit that stepping forward. We’re like, okay, so you were in a place where you were insulted or felt really uncomfortable, or you were bullied for being who you were. You pulled back that part of you, whatever it was that you felt was sort of like the thing that the way that you were showing up, the part that ended up, quote, attracting bullying. Of course, we know that. Like, that’s not the way it works. But in your mind, you’re probably like, tell ourselves that story. We tucked that away. And then what you’re describing, I guess, is instead of trying to figure out what is that part, who is that part, and how do we heal it? Often what we do is we say, okay, how are you going to be braver? How are you going to be more confident? How are you going to go learn how to fight? You know, and and these serve a purpose, right? Because maybe for like, a moment in time. They keep us safe. They allow us to step back into some sort of social context. They allow us to kind of, like, breathe again for a moment. But what you’re saying is that part that’s been exiled, that like that truly heard part. As long as that stay is exiled, there’s going to be an ache that never heals inside of us, no matter how brave or how competent or how fortified and armored those other protector parts get. Is that right?
Tamala Floyd: [00:39:25] That’s right. That is perfect.
Jonathan Fields: [00:39:27] But that’s what we do so often. Like that’s how we go about like, quote, fixing the problem.
Tamala Floyd: [00:39:31] Fixing the problem. Exactly. I want to be the opposite of what hurt me. If what hurt me was being weak, then I need to be strong. If what hurt me was being meek and quiet, then I need to be loud and boisterous and out there, you know. So, yeah. So whatever it was that hurt us, some part is going to step into the role, take on the job of protecting us in a way. One of the things that you said that I think is really important, or at least alluded to, is that the parts are going to like they can’t stop doing this job. And at one time it worked, right. That strategy worked. The reason I see people in therapy is because those strategies are broken down. They don’t work anymore. And so they’re like, hey, I’ve done everything I can. I’ve tried this and this and this. It’s not working anymore. I’m still feeling this rejection. I need to work with this. That’s where the strategies have broken down. But the thing and this is why we like not to call them a dysfunction. Because they did serve a purpose. They worked, otherwise the parts wouldn’t have kept doing them. Need people pleasing. Worked for a long time until they did.
Jonathan Fields: [00:40:45] And I guess it’s when it stops working. That’s often when people are like, oh, I thought I was okay.
Tamala Floyd: [00:40:52] Right.
Jonathan Fields: [00:40:54] And I’m like doing everything I’ve always done and that everything. It always worked.
Tamala Floyd: [00:40:59] It always worked.
Jonathan Fields: [00:41:00] And for some reason, it’s not working. That must be so confounding when somebody comes to you and they’re like, literally, I’ve been showing up this way for 20 years and it’s got me where I am. Like, I have a really good life and I.
Jonathan Fields: [00:41:11] Like, I don’t get wounded easily and stuff like this. And now it’s kind of, I’m doing I’m showing up as the same person, but it’s not working anymore. There must be such a like, incredibly frustrating moment for folks.
Tamala Floyd: [00:41:23] It is. It really is. And I get curious about what’s the breakdown. What’s not working? What’s changed? You know, because that’s where we can step into the healing. You know that. Yes. You’ve done it for 20 years and it’s worked, but now it’s not. And why not?
Jonathan Fields: [00:41:41] Yeah. Do you see patterns there as well? Are there certainly common reasons why things eventually like that original way of being breaks down.
Tamala Floyd: [00:41:49] Yeah. The main, the main pattern that I see, where it breaks down across all different types of parts and situations is the parts get tired.
Jonathan Fields: [00:42:00] Mhm.
Tamala Floyd: [00:42:01] They get exhausted. My people pleaser was exhausted. She just didn’t want to do what other people wanted her to do anymore because they’re not in their natural role. So just think about anything that you do unnaturally for a long period of time. At some point you’re not going to want to do that anymore. And that’s what happens. The parts just get exhausted.
Jonathan Fields: [00:42:25] I mean, I would imagine this shows up people in work context all the time, too. It’s like you have an offer for a job. You’re like, this isn’t quite me, but I really want it. And maybe, maybe economically you’re like, I really need this. Like, security is a big value to me. And like, this is important to me. So I’m going to kind of shapeshift a little bit. I’m going to push this part forward and almost lead with it. Even though I know that it takes a lot of energy to do that.
Tamala Floyd: [00:42:51] Yeah.
Jonathan Fields: [00:42:51] And you do that and you get the job, and you grow in the job and you have all this. It’s got to be incredibly. Like, take that example, right? You rise up a ladder that you aspire to rise up. It’s 15 years later. You’ve been showing up with this party configuration for so many years, and it’s gotten you. Check check check check check check check. And now you have people relying on you to sustain a family or extended family or friends, whatever it may be causes you care about. And then the parts are just like, done. Like the way that I’m showing up. Like me being pushed to the front like this. No, more like I’m exhausted. I can’t do it anymore. It’s got to be, um, a moment where, like, even if you know what’s going on, it’s like you’ve built the artifice of a life around your parts, showing up in a particular way. And even if you’re, you know, you sit down with a therapist, with someone like you who’s really steeped into this and you’re like, oh, wow, this is what’s happening at the same time we’re like, But I’ve built a life around this, and I don’t want to dismantle that life. That has got to be just a tough moment.
Tamala Floyd: [00:43:54] That is a really tough moment. And one of the things you’re also touching on is that part. That personality becomes us in the way that we start to believe this, this, you know, high achieving, you know, person who’s promoted to, you know, senior VP of something and something else that that’s me. But it’s not because we’ve been living it for 15, 20 years. And so we get disconnected from the true self. And in IFS we call these self like parts. And one of the experiences that I had around that is definitely connected to the people pleaser, because in addition to being a people pleaser, but I also came to realize my parts did, is that being smart paid off like you need to be the smart one. So that also came from that sea experience, right? So I became an intellectual advisor. Now, I didn’t know this. I didn’t know I had a part that was intellectualizing I remember. And this I’m going to get back to how this can really shake you. I remember being in therapy in, I don’t know, probably my 30s. Late 30s and the therapist saying, you truly are an intellectual loser. That’s how you move through life. And I was like, what do you mean? I’m an intellectualizer?
Jonathan Fields: [00:45:15] And that’s like, you intellectualize like, no, I’m not. Let’s argue this out.
Tamala Floyd: [00:45:19] Right? Because it’s you’re so steeped in that identity. And so I thought I was just a smart person. Like, that’s just how I moved through the world. I’m smart. I figure things out. I work through things. I have all these degrees. That’s the right. What? Oh, that’s a part. That’s not me.
Jonathan Fields: [00:45:38] Mhm.
Tamala Floyd: [00:45:38] And I learned that. No the self like parts are not there. They’re so close to who you are. You know, the veil is very thin. It feels like you. But it’s not all of you.
Jonathan Fields: [00:45:49] How do we start to use the word ta? Ta? I think you use the phrase build a relationship or be back in relationship with your parts. Once we start to realize, oh, this is what’s happening here, there’s been some kind of breakdown in some way, which I think is probably how most of us are waking to the fact that, oh, something’s not working for me anymore. And maybe they get exposed to the notion of parts and parts where they’re like, oh, I’m starting to get this. I’m starting to see, like, this part is taking the lead and or this part is really shrunk back or being exiled like I don’t need and tell me if this is the right language. Rebuild the relationship with the parts in a way that works for us. Or I think you actually use the phrase unburdening to unburden.
Tamala Floyd: [00:46:28] So the one thing, the first thing is the getting in relationship with that’s the first thing. And who you’re getting in to relationship with are your protectors. Intellectualize. Or the one who’s getting angry, the critical one, the people pleaser. Because those are the ones that are protecting the exile. And we don’t get to heal or unburden. Who gets unburdened is the exile, typically. But we don’t get there unless we develop a relationship with the ones who protect it, you know? So you think about a family because we call this internal family systems therapy. You don’t get access typically to people’s children unless you have a relationship with the parents. So the protectors are who we have to come into relationship with before. So when I was saying being in a relationship, like using the example of drawing the parts, externalizing our parts are a really good way to come into relationship with them instead of just kind of trying to figure them out in our head or come into relationship with them in our head by ourself. So if we’re working by ourself, one of the great ways is to either have something that represents the part like a shell or a small miniature. If you have children, one of your children’s toys can represent your various parts, right? And then asking the parts coming into relationship, what I’ve drawn on the page, or these parts that I’ve externalized with my kids toys to talk to. To understand what is it that is causing the anchor? What is your job in mind? How do you help me? What is your job in my system? How did you take on this job? How long have you been doing it? This helps us get to the ones that these parts protect. When we can take ourselves back to childhood, which is typically where this has occurred. But sometimes it can be a little later. But take us back to the origin of when this part thought it had to protect us this way. Then eventually we want to get to who it’s protecting. So when I get to my part that felt rejected, who people pleaser is protecting, that’s the one I’m going to unburden, because the rejected part took on some beliefs about itself. Like I’m not good enough, so I need to, you know, that felt the rejection because I’m not good enough. And this is why I’m shrinking. Because I’m not good enough. So that’s the one we’re going to heal or unburden.
Jonathan Fields: [00:48:58] So we start out with the protector part. It’s almost like we call for the protector part. And I guess we step into this conversation with the protector part with the intention of benevolence. Like like assuming that the part had the intention of benevolence. Like not saying like, hey, evil part, come here. Like you’re like you’re causing a breakdown in my life.
Tamala Floyd: [00:49:18] We need to figure.
Jonathan Fields: [00:49:19] Out how to just, like, shut you down. You’re like, no, no, let’s I want to know you, like, let’s go back and understand, like how you’ve been really good and help me so much until this.
Tamala Floyd: [00:49:26] Moment.
Jonathan Fields: [00:49:27] And honor and acknowledge that. And and it sounds like that then gives you I love the description of like, if you want to talk to a kid like you, start by building relationship with the parent because the parent has access to the child, and then that helps you then gain access to the exiled part. And that’s where the deeper unburdening work starts to happen.
Tamala Floyd: [00:49:45] That’s right.
Jonathan Fields: [00:49:46] Okay. So talk to me about the process of unburdening now.
Tamala Floyd: [00:49:51] Once our protectors give us access to the identify that it’s the rejected one that I’m protecting. And I would say if I could go to that rejected one and help it, would you be open to that? Now, remember, by the time I’m seeing these clients, these parts are exhausted. Okay. If you think you can help. I mean, certainly some parts are skeptical, but ultimately the parts, once they give us permission to be with that young one, that exile, then we want to come into relationship with the exile and understand, just like we did with the protector really understanding its role. Why is it hiding what has happened, you know. How long have you felt this way? What are you holding? I really want to understand what caused you to step back. And so one of the things that I often do is I’ll ask the exile, ask the client to ask their exile part to show them. Show the client what hurt this part so much? What was this part struggle. So in my case, and I’ll say maybe show it like a movie, you know, just kind of just showing you the pictures of the movie of that time. So what came up for my rejected part was when she brought that see in Science home in the fifth grade or whatever. And so she shows that scene and you see the hurt and the rejection and the rejection that this part felt when she heard that this isn’t a child of her father’s. Right. We are. Then how would that cause you to interact with that part? Jonathan, if you if this part is sharing, you know, I just felt like I was unlovable. Lovable. Like I was just being thrown away. How would you respond to that little one?
Jonathan Fields: [00:51:36] You want to give him a hug? I mean.
Tamala Floyd: [00:51:38] Yeah. Right. So connection. Right? Somehow we want to connect with this part. And once the parts. See that? Oh, this is a safe big person. This is someone who is really curious and cares about me. The part may come close. I’ve had my parts sit in my lap to come close. So we want to learn more and let the part know it’s okay for you to share your experience. And we call that witnessing. And if we’re witnessing the experience that this heart part had in the past, after the witnessing is complete, we can find out. You know, sometimes our parts are stuck in the past, like kind of frozen in the past. We might want to bring them out of that scene. Sometimes they come on their own. If a part comes, it gets closer to you. It sits in your lap. It’s already left that trauma scenes present with you, right? So after we witness, we’re going to invite these parts into releasing any beliefs or thoughts or feelings that they took on as a result of that burden that they’re holding in their bodies. We help them to unburden that. And typically unburdening is to one of the elements like fire, earth, wind.
Tamala Floyd: [00:52:47] So we have them unburden that, release it, say to the air or on water. And then the part had some innate qualities that it was born with. Right. But clearly while it’s been exiled, it hasn’t been expressing those qualities. It gets to invite back in those qualities that it had exiled or that it didn’t get to express. And so it brings those qualities in. And so we call that the we’ve unburdened the burdens we’re inviting in the qualities this part will need moving forward now that it will no longer be hidden. And then we do what we call integration. We invite back in those parts that we’re protecting this part. So we would invite back in my people pleaser part. To see how this little one now is no longer burden and has these qualities now that to move forward. And the reason we do that is it lets the protector know this part doesn’t need protecting anymore. She is strong. He is strong bear strong, bear healthy. And so now you get to protect her, take on a new role. Because now you don’t have to protect. You can be something else in the system.
Jonathan Fields: [00:53:53] And that exhaustion that you described as like having to carry that burden of protection for so long, it’s like, okay.
Tamala Floyd: [00:54:00] Yeah.
Jonathan Fields: [00:54:01] So now I see that the, the part that I’ve been protecting for so long, the world has changed, circumstances have changed. It’s safe for them to now actually come out and show up as they did in quote before times. And they are now they’re ready. They’re willing to see that. So I can drop I can let down the mantle. And the exhaustion that has come along with it for so many years. Is that right?
Tamala Floyd: [00:54:25] Absolutely. And then this part gets to choose how it wants to be in the system. It may not want, you know, whatever it was doing before. It doesn’t have to do that anymore because this other one doesn’t require the protection. And of course, that relieves them of the exhaustion, too.
Jonathan Fields: [00:54:41] When you’re working with somebody in a therapeutic context, having the types of conversations that you just described.
Tamala Floyd: [00:54:46] Mhm.
Jonathan Fields: [00:54:47] Who are you talking to in the conversation?
Tamala Floyd: [00:54:50] What’s happening is the I’m talking to my client’s self not a part I’m talking to theirself. And there’s things we do earlier to make sure that the self is who’s in the seat of consciousness and not another part. So once that’s clear who’s being in relationship with the client’s part is the client self. So those qualities of so, so that the curiosity and the, the calm and the connection that’s coming from the client’s self to the part.
Jonathan Fields: [00:55:21] Got it. So when you ask the client, well, like, do you like play the movie of that moment. It’s the self that’s playing the movie, or it’s or it’s asking the part to sort of like tell the story in the form of the movie.
Tamala Floyd: [00:55:33] Yes. Yeah. So self asked that question and then The Exile is showing us their pain. The exile is playing the movie.
Jonathan Fields: [00:55:41] So it’s like almost like you’re prompting the self to prompt the parts.
Tamala Floyd: [00:55:45] Exactly. And when a person has enough self energy. I’m so glad you said that. I’m prompting the self to prompt the parts. There’s a point in IFS therapy where I don’t have to do that anymore. Basically, I’m sitting with my client in my own self energy, so I have to make sure my parts, you know, step back in my own self energy holding the process. So because the other quality is not a C quality, but we know that it exists, is that the self is also intuitive. Like I don’t have to keep prompting at some point. The self is going to move closer to the little ones, just like I asked you. Like, how would you respond?
Jonathan Fields: [00:56:30] Yeah.
Tamala Floyd: [00:56:31] You know, the self is going to know this. This little one is being vulnerable and it’s unprotected. I’m going to go over there and or ask. Invite that one to come close to me and hold it. If it wants to be held right. So at some point I’m saying things like, so what’s happening now? I’m not having to prom. It’s like, well, she’s coming to my lap. I’m hugging her. She’s sharing more of my story. Okay. Let her share as much of her story as she wants to. Just know that I’m here if you need any type of support. So now they have their own relationship, which is what we want because the therapist one is not going to be in your life forever and ever. And we want the parts to have their own connection to the client’s self.
Jonathan Fields: [00:57:14] Yeah. And I guess to you as a therapist also, that must be a really an important signal to you. Like. Oh, okay. Like, we’ve just sort of crossed the threshold here where there’s like a level of self-efficacy that’s starting to emerge and awareness that this person can probably start to internalize this and notice a lot of these things and then figure out like how to appropriately rebalance or unburden without as much or as frequent or in-depth intervention from from somebody in the outside.
Tamala Floyd: [00:57:44] Absolutely. Yeah.
Jonathan Fields: [00:57:45] You use a phrase, um, embodied a number of times during our conversation, also, especially in the context of trauma. And I know that’s a part of the work that you do. Also, I think what’s interesting to me about the work also is that yes, you use IFS, I know as a sort of a central modality, but you also take a very somatic like more broadly somatic approach with these, you know, working assumption that trauma is experience, I guess not just in this reallocation of the way that the parts show up, but it’s like in the physical body itself. It’s embodied. You know, when we see the work of Bessel van der Kolk and so many others have come after. How does this notion inform the work of unburdening, of getting back to yourself, of of integrating trauma?
Tamala Floyd: [00:58:31] So because we know that trauma actually gets stuck in the body. It shows up in the body parts due to, you know, there are parts that might show up in our head or in our gut or in our throat. Right. And where the burdens are showing up. So it’s really important. One of the first things we do when we’re working with the client say working with that angry part, right. I would say, where do you notice that? In your body.
Jonathan Fields: [00:58:58] Hmm.
Tamala Floyd: [00:58:59] Where does where does that part live in your body? And sometimes our parts are just outside of our body. So I might say in or around your body. Like, sometimes it’s, you know, just outside of our body somewher, right? The reason that’s so important is when we get to the point of unburdening a part, we really want the client to be able to release that part from wherever it shows up in the body. So that part of me that felt rejected. Where did rejection show up in? My body, showed up in my heart. It also showed up in my solar plexus. So that’s where we want to release it from, because it literally is taking up space in the client’s body in those locations. So that’s why it’s really important. And also it helps us to know which parts are present. Like, I know the difference between anxiety in my gut and rejection in my gut. They show up differently. It’s not the exact same heat or movement or sensation in the body. So you also know, oh, okay, I see that that is that that anxiety part. It’s not the the part that felt rejected. Right. So that also helps us to know who’s present, who’s here with us right now.
Jonathan Fields: [01:00:13] I mean, so it’s really interesting. Right? There’s this relationship between the parts, the burdens they take on the process of unburdening the part. But also then it sounds like the process of almost like dissociating the part from the physical part of the body in which it resides.
Tamala Floyd: [01:00:32] Yes. Absolutely.
Tamala Floyd: [01:00:33] Yes. And not only do we want to release the burden from the body in the way that it shows up again, just for clarification, because I might not have been clear, we’re not releasing the part like we’re not getting rid of the part.
Jonathan Fields: [01:00:49] Yeah.
Tamala Floyd: [01:00:49] And what I’m releasing is whatever burden my parts are holding. Right. So that rejection. But someone’s holding the rejection. So I want to keep the someone and just unburden the rejection that they were holding. The other part about embodiment is when we invite in the gifts, we’re inviting our client to take those gifts into their body. So if I want to take in the gift of I am valuable and lovable. I want to feel that within my body, within my system, to actually really bring that in. So that’s the other piece of the embodiment too.
Jonathan Fields: [01:01:26] Mhm. So it’s like if there’s a part that lives in your heart and it’s you know, and this is a loving, generous kind part and it’s, it’s been tucked away like it’s been exiled. That part is still going to be there. And then when you sort of like when it unburdened itself, it’s like that part allows to expand in that same area also. And it’s.
Tamala Floyd: [01:01:46] Like, yeah.
Jonathan Fields: [01:01:47] It’s like I have this visual now.
Tamala Floyd: [01:01:50] It’s a very.
Jonathan Fields: [01:01:51] Weird visual just popped into my head like the like.
Tamala Floyd: [01:01:53] Old.
Jonathan Fields: [01:01:54] Game operation where you’re like.
Tamala Floyd: [01:01:55] Yeah, little.
Jonathan Fields: [01:01:56] Tweezers and a buzzer and like, you’re trying to remove like this, this, this, this. And I’m just like, okay, so like a map of my body with, like, the different parts located in different places in my body. And if I’m anxious, I feel it often in my gut. So maybe there’s something happening there. Um, and if you could unburden that, like maybe the somatic response to that is the gut just feels relaxed and okay.
Tamala Floyd: [01:02:21] Yeah, absolutely. And the other thing that I like about knowing where my parts show up, like I do have a part that holds anxiety. She shows up in my gut. She’s been unburdened, but she’s still with this part holds is I want you to do a good job. And one of the ways she lets me know she’s here and wants me to do a good job. She makes my stomach a little nervous. Right. And so I’ll put my hand on my stomach before I’m getting ready to do something that might cause her. Now, she used to take me out now with just a little and just let you know. I want you to do a good job, and I can let her know. Yeah, I hear you. And I’m good. I’m really good. Thank you. And if you want to just go relax, you can. Because we know already that when you relax, I really can do a good job. She’s like, yeah, that’s right, I remember that. You know, so that’s the benefit of coming into relationship with the parts. So instead of her taking me out, making me stutter, oh, I can’t remember what I was going to talk about, which is what she used to do before she was unburdened. You know, she’s just a little reminder that, you know, I’m just really here because I really want you to show up.
Jonathan Fields: [01:03:32] Well, yeah. It’s like, hey, this matters, remember? But you’re going to. But you’re going to be okay.
Tamala Floyd: [01:03:37] But you’re right. I’m not gonna die. Yeah.
Jonathan Fields: [01:03:39] And I think that brings us to, like, the final thing. And this is actually how you wrap your book with this notion of this is not a one and done. This is a conversation that we keep revisiting and keeps unfolding.
Tamala Floyd: [01:03:52] Yeah.
Jonathan Fields: [01:03:52] Until our final breath.
Tamala Floyd: [01:03:54] Absolutely. We want to continue to be in relationship with our parts however we can. And the more work we do with parts, we may uncover other parts like for some parts, it’s not safe to come out first. Right? They kind of want to sit in the background. Let me see about this IFS and see if it really is. You know what? What the person thinks it is, right? But once they see some of our parts get some healing, they too will come up to the fore. And that’s what. Another reason why it’s not a one and done. Now I have clients who say, how many parts do I have? How many parts are going to need healing? I said, I don’t know, but this is a good thing because they are trusting you. They’re trusting yourself to be there for them when they come up for healing. So yeah, and to be unburdened.
Jonathan Fields: [01:04:44] I guess you could also you could sort of like reframe that, that and say like like, oh dear God, how many parts do I have? Like, are they going to keep coming out of the woodwork and say, like, how incredible that I have so many parts that can become unburdened and become like beautiful allies in the way that I want to show up in the world and how I want to be and do and become. And that it’s not like I actually have this incredible community around me that I can tap into. Yeah, tell a little bit of a different story about them, right?
Tamala Floyd: [01:05:14] Absolutely. I just love the way that you reframe a lot of the concepts of IFS. I mean, it’s just so beautifully spoken, really.
Jonathan Fields: [01:05:24] I’m just trying to like, simplify it for me so I can wrap my head around it so.
Tamala Floyd: [01:05:29] It’s beautiful.
Jonathan Fields: [01:05:31] Ah, thank you.
Tamala Floyd: [01:05:31] You have a poetic way of speaking that I’m really enjoying.
Jonathan Fields: [01:05:34] Appreciate that and appreciate that. Love learning from you as well. It feels like a good place for us to come full circle in our conversation. So in this container of Good Life project, if I offer up the phrase to live a good life, what comes up.
Tamala Floyd: [01:05:46] To live a good life? Know that you are whole, well, healthy and wise.
Jonathan Fields: [01:05:56] Thank you.
Tamala Floyd: [01:05:57] You’re welcome. You’re very welcome.
Jonathan Fields: [01:06:01] Hey, before you leave, if you love this episode, safe bet you’ll also love the conversation we had with Tara Brach about using mindfulness and compassion to free ourselves from suffering. You can find a link to that episode in the show notes. This episode of Good Life Project was produced by executive producers Lindsey Fox and me, Jonathan Fields. Editing help by, Alejandro Ramirez, and Troy Young. Kristoffer Carter crafted our theme music, and of course, if you haven’t already done so, please go ahead and follow Good Life Project in your favorite listening app or on YouTube too. If you found this conversation interesting or valuable and inspiring. Chances are you did because you’re still listening here. Do me personal favor a seven-second favor. Share it with just one person and if you want to share it with more, that’s awesome too. But just one person even then, invite them to talk with you about what you’ve both discovered to reconnect and explore ideas that really matter. Because that’s how we all come alive together. Until next time, I’m Jonathan Fields signing off for Good Life Project.